Drafted Thoughts

Tuesday 28th July 2026

‘Why do I always do this?’ 

Scrolling through their notes app, they felt a sense of deep disappointment creep into them. 

They had drafted so many emails to send out for job opportunities, courses, and ideas for passion projects. But they knew that only a handful were sent and achieved. And with time passing them by, so did their age, which resulted in them no longer being eligible to pursue a lot of those pursuits. Feeling daft drafting their life and ideas away due to everything having to look, sound or be perfect before making it happen resulted in nothing but time simply being lost… 

Making it exist first should have been the priority, and draft later to make it good in the future.

The End

Sike I'm not done!

This is, in fact, about myself. 

Sidenote: I draft most things before I send them.

Need to send an email?

I’ll draft that bad boy in my notes app, then copy it into the body of the email instead. Need to send a risky or unsettling text message?

Draft first in the notes app 

Have an idea?

Draft in my notes ( when it comes to the good ones... that shit goes in a notepad loool can't trust technology 🤫🤭)

You get the gist; this is how my brain works to deal with overwhelming feelings.

End of sidenote

So earlier, when I had the urge to scroll to the bottom of my notes app on my laptop and saw all the emails, projects, applications, etc

Some I had done and achieved. Past me even wrote a few notes on things I didn't even expect to achieve back then. And I'm proud of myself for that <3

But as you know, we humans like to see the bad more than the good sometimes...

When seeing the stuff I can't apply for anymore because of my age HURT ME BECAUSE I HAD MULTIPLE YEARS, MEANING MULTIPLE OPPORTUNITIES to apply, all because I was

scared to send it off, not thinking what I wrote was good enough and getting in my head, but now I'll never find out... what could have been. That's pain (I don't regret though)

My ideas and projects are my ideas, so I know those will come to fruition when I'm ready (I may need a little kick in the bum and reminder that they need to simply just exist), which I know I can do if I stop trying to make it 'perfect' first.

So with that being said. If there is something you are putting off... Don't

cause I don't want you to feel the pain I have today x

Better to try rather than just imagining

Better for it to exist today than never knowing what could have been